Thank you - Shelby's story.

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has and will read this blog. Yesterday the blog reached over 100 views. And after a week of being online and only 4 posts I am already succeeding in my aim to unite mums and dads of angel babies through my own story and thoughts, as well as the stories of others. This weekend I want to share the stories of some inspirational women who have helped me through the start of my journey. Everyone's stories are different, but each and every story should be told. All loss, no matter how small is significant.

This is the story of angel mummy Shelby. @shelbyalbinson

I feel as if there are so many ladies on here with worse stories than mine, but I wanted to share my miscarriage in the hope of finding relief.

My finance, (boyfriend at the time) and I were not planning on having a baby so when those two pink lines appeared, little to say we were terrified. I have a rare severe form of endometriosis and doctors have told me for years that I would be infertile by the time I was 22. So I couldn't help but feel blessed to be pregnant and feel so great. I immediately set up doctors appointments and started taking prenatals.

Everything was going great even though the doctor reassured me at my ultrasound it was normal not to see anything yet because of how early it was (6 weeks). However, on the night of April 25th I started having brown discharge.. I was terrified but after hours of reading and research I was comforted to find out that it was normal in early pregnancy for old blood to come out. Except the morning of April 26th my worst fears came true, I started bleeding red. We went to the ER were I had blood tests and several ultrasounds. When my blood test came back it determined that my HCG levels had dropped to 65 :( and I was indeed having a miscarriage. However my doctor still had to perform a pelvic exam. During the exam I passed my baby. They placed the small little placenta with my angel inside on the tray next to me. They immediately covered it up and tried to reassure it was nothing, even though I knew it was my baby. My first, and one and only. My fiance held me and we both cried. 

You were unexpected but still loved unconditionally the moment I found out I was pregnant with you. My heart breaks that I wont be able to meet you this December but I just try and remember that my angel is safe, and is watching over and protecting me everyday.

I miss and love you my angel. 

26/4/13 <3